Saturday, November 14, 2015

Counting

Forty-four for me. 49 for him. The girl has had 22 so far. One boy has had almost 18 and the other 9. The union that started this has counted nearly 25. 

Looking back they had 47. He has had almost 72 now. She had 65. She didn't see 66. She didn't see 67. Or 68. Or 69. And we won't get to throw a party for 70 next year. 

Four years. 

She was mine for 40 years. 

She pushed me into this world in more ways than one. 

She birthed 5. 

She had 4 siblings. 

She had two parents. 

She had 11 biological grands and one biological great grand. 

Countless friends. 

Four years. 

Four years ago her body gave up. 

Four years ago she left numbers behind. 

Four years ago she left people behind. 

Four years ago she left family behind. 

Four years ago she left me behind. 

And I keep counting. Not knowing how many I will get to count. 

So I must make the counting count.